I haven't posted because I haven't had anything nice to say.
Today was actually a good day. Felt strange to have one of those, but it was truly a gift from Jesus to me.
I still struggled... D still struggled...
but I got a nap... and drumroll please.... a job working part time hours with full time benefits baking and cake decorating at Safeway, 10 minutes from home.
I am sitting here listening to D, trying to go to sleep.
I have a coctail next to the keyboard, and am going to bed shortly.
Life is far from perfect. However, I am finally starting to feel like we are going to make it, not just surviving, but that we might actually thrive.
I am praying that this brief moment of optimism extends to tomorrow.
until then,
by the way,
The Betty Crocker, Betty Page, Betty Boop, Betty Craziness is a bunch of Crap.
I would much rather learn to be myself. Haven't been her in a while. It would be nice to spend some time with her.
You need to change your profile with the quickness. Just for the record: I like the real you... and the new you. It's going to take awhile to feel that you're thriving but I applaud every day that you get out of bed and give it a whack. You inspire me.
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I love seeing the old you reemerge-The new you blossom. I missed seeing my girl shine in her element. Welcome to The new young woman waking to new possiblilities... I too am inspired and am so proud to know that you are making a new life that creates possiblities for more than heart ache for you and our precious boy.
ReplyDeleteDear Girl! You are going to feel better, so much better. It is going to be awhile and things will take you back to that dark place sometimes. But the long term view is going to be absolutely beautiful!
ReplyDeleteWhen God prepares your way, it is always so much better than you could ever dream or ask for. I promise.