The MRI went alright...
My body is wrecked from having to lay in that position for an hour.
I think I would be more hopeful if I didn't have to go back Monday for the other hand.

Today I am dark and twisty... and that is alright. I am not censoring my emotions today. That in itself marks growth for me.

I was at Kat's until super late last night and it felt so good.
We drank chick beer and laid on the couch and just hung out.
Moments where I am just myself, not somebody's wife, or somebody's mom, or somebody's daughter... just me. We laughed about stupid crap and ate chocolate cake out of a box.
I need more evenings like that. They remind me that I am not the sum of my circumstances.

I really love that she knows not to ask "How are you?" but asks me how the day is going. She knows... and she gets me.. and I get her... God loves me after all, to have provided such a friend.

on another note - - the tech who started my IV today noted that I have super thick skin... seems ironic... doesn't it?